So it’s been about two months since I took myself and my formal diagnosis to the pharmacist to pick up a little bottle of Adderall XR. And I think it’s about time for an update.
Started off with 20mg once a day, in the morning. I thought it might be having effects, but then again, maybe not. It was hard to tell from day to day, but I was definitely having little bursts where I could do the things a normal person does, which is to say my attention wasn’t flitting about like a howler monkey on crack in a room full of shiny objects. For brief interludes. At the one-month mark, I talked to my shrink about it and she and I conversed and decided that 30mg of time-release twice per day made more sense. And oh man, was she ever right.
My memory is much better. I’m better at staying on-task when I’m doing stuff. Conversations are less rambly and more interesting. My sense of humor is less manic/jumpy/free-association, which is a good or bad thing, depending on who you talk to. All in all, I am pretty pleased.
Negative Side Effects
My afternoon dosage may be too high. Then again, I may need to get better about my timing. Sometimes, I got to bed at 2:30 in the morning and I’m not tired — I’m just going because I really should have been in bed hours ago, and I’m not, because I’m working or writing or whatever. There’s been a few minor spates of light-headedness, and a bit of dry-mouth at times, but nothing show-stopping.
I’m really happy I finally did something about this. Looking back, it was kind of obvious all along that there were issues. How I managed to have a career, get married, and have kids without being labeled “MONUMENTAL FUCKUP” is beyond me.