For various reasons, I am reconsidering the amount of time and effort I put into writing for this blog. There are positives and negatives to having this thing, however, and I am contemplating those lately as I think about whether or not it’s worth it to continue (most likely) and how much I should write for it (TBD).
I think that if I do keep going with this, much of what I write, going forward, will likely focus around my attempts to move past the traumas inflicted on me and, as a result, the self-sabotaging crap I’ve done to myself. I think it’s important. Not just to help myself, but hopefully so that others out there that suffer from similar stuff clogging their headspace can understand that it’s not uncommon, that it’s something you can get over, and that you can walk a path of your own choosing. Your future does not have to be dictated by the people who have hurt you.
So I guess I’ve just talked myself into continuing this blog. That’s okay. I need to. I need to document my journey back to myself and to a life I can live with.
I’ll be continuing. I hope you’ll join me for the ride. I hope you’ll call me out when I get down on myself or think I can’t make this. I hope you’ll call me out if you think I am avoiding the hard topics, being too hard on myself, and when I feel like I can’t do all this.
And I hope you’ll celebrate the wins with me, too. The moments when I’m more me, when I’ve become the man I am trying so desperately to be, and when I can walk out into the sun, with my defenses down, and say, with complete authenticity that I have healed, I have built myself anew, and that the future can be anything I want it to be.
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