I feel this weird need to fill in the gaps in my blog right now. I haven’t been updating much and even missed the April Tinkering update (which will be rolled into an April/May update). A lot has been going on, as you’ve probably managed to infer, and it’s kept me away from a lot of time that would otherwise be spent tinkering. Having Civilization 5 back on the laptop hasn’t helped either.
After a layoff from the ADD meds that spanned months in duration, I’m back in the saddle again, and the meds are keeping me functional. Middle of last week, after a bunch of rigamarole and floundering about, I decided to stick with my original psychiatrist, and went in to discuss the matter.
Image Credits: Dan Bailey/Copyright 2017.
There are many balls in the air, but I don’t feel overwhelmed by my workload. Not even close. It’s weird. Normally, I’d be all over the place, panicking, or so stressed out that I felt the need to bury my head in a book and pretend that “it can wait until later.” Which was never true. Not now, not then. I’m crediting two things, the first being the switch in my ADD meds, and the other being in how I have kept myself from jumping around and leaving projects half-finished. It’s been revelatory.
Image Credits: Michael Schwarzenberger/Creative Commons Zero (CC0).
Adderall is no longer my ADD med of choice. It took forever to get it dialed-in, and the result was taking a 30mg time-release in the morning, with another in early-afternoon. That was what it took to get me to focus, and the side effects were horrible:
All my life, I’ve been plagued by an onslaught of great ideas. If you know me for any amount of time, you know that this is both a blessing and a curse. An idea falls in my lap, and I get started on the pursuit of that idea, and then while that’s underway, more ideas crop up and they’re interesting…more interesting than the actual execution of the current project. You could say that I subscribe to Shiny Object Syndrome, which is a hallmark of ADD1. One of my big goals has been to really rein in that crap, because it really does nothing but create a lot of frustration/regret/etc.
Which I have, and have discussed in this blog at-length.↩