Goodbye, Happy

Today, we said goodbye to Happy.

After the move, he slowed down drastically, moving slower and withdrawing from contact with us and the other cats. He spent a ton of time sleeping in the bathtub, and would purr when pet, but he wasn’t eating or drinking and something was clearly wrong.

Took him to the vet yesterday, and his bowels and bladder were empty — he hadn’t been eating or drinking for a couple of days. And there was fluid in his abdomen. As soon as Kate mentioned that, I knew.

He came home yesterday and spent the night here. We pet him, we told him we loved him, and we prepared Eddy for the idea of Happy being gone. He understands…sort of. Not the concept of death, but that Happy won’t be here anymore.

So we had planned to wait until Monday, but that didn’t work out. Happy was sliding more and more rapidly down that hill…and we didn’t want him dying alone in some far corner of the house, and we especially didn’t want him to linger in pain any longer than he had to. So this morning, we dropped the boys off with friends, and Kate and I took Happy to the UMN vet clinic and we made sure that when he went, he was surrounded by love, that he was held, he was comforted, and that his transition out of the world was as peaceful and calm as possible.

The house already feels a little empty. He was the Dude’s rug, I guess — he really tied the room together.

I’m going to miss that cat for a long damn time.

Five Drones That Are, Like, Billion-Dollar Ideas…Maybe

1. A drone that changes litterboxes.

2. A drone that takes out the fucking trash and mows the lawn and does all the other annoying man work around the house. 1

3. A drone that will herd children to bed at the appropriate time and be intimidating enough where they won’t whine, engage in histrionics, or anything like that.

4. I get to count the litterbox-changing drone twice because that fucker is worth at least two billion dollars.

5. A drone that shoots down all the other drones and then self-destructs.

Image Credits: U.S. Air Force photo/Staff Sgt. Brian Ferguson – USAF Photographic Archives.


  1. HOLY SHIT. When did I get so gender normative on things like chores? That’s fucking weird.

Tonight’s To-Do

Yeah, another of those non-exciting blogs. Deal. My carryover list is down to three things, which are at the top of the list. Everything else is additional stuff that needs to be tackled.

  • get dovecot and spam assassin working on my server
  • email bike shop boss
  • research tattoo lasering
  • survive bike commute home good day, no hostile drivers
  • therapy (priority one) well that was not what I’d call fun, but I am there to work
  • finish chapter one of Blackjack Runner
  • unpack more (priority two)
  • clean kitchen (priority three) done in the morning
  • press dress shirts
  • work on freelancing site

Cycling Goals for 2015/2016

Posts in this series
  1. What Shall I Write?: the 2015 Edition
  2. Looking Around
  3. Cycling Goals for 2015/2016

As part of my “what should I write in 2015″ post, I also got asked about my cycling goals for 2015 and 2016.

So, here’s what’s up.

2015 Goals

  1. finish building my CX frameset
  2. rejoin Birchwood and race 3-4 CX events this year
  3. get back to working at a bike shop part time
  4. acquire new Surly Steamroller (or similar beast-mode singlespeed) for work commuting year-round
  5. survive the Powderhorn 24
  6. design new fixture in CAD program

2016 Goals

  1. do 100 practice joints of each type — fillet-brazed and silver/lug brazing
  2. race road and cyclocross; track if feasible (not likely)
  3. build myself a new frame
  4. Almanzo 100(?)
  5. get Eddy riding without training wheels
  6. train myself consistently
  7. ride Maah Daah Hey with Reed during May or June

Image Credits: Pexels.

Revised To-Do List for Tonight

  • ride home from work
  • not die
  • get stuff out of van and into house/garage
  • finish postfix configuration — now need to get dovecot and spam assassin going
  • pick up glasses
  • email bike shop boss
  • work on freelancing site
  • research tooth whitening
  • research tattoo lasering

Seems like a much more manageable list than last night. Some of these are pretty damn easy. Whew.

The Adderall Chronicles

So. I’ve been on Adderall since April. I’ve dealt with one adjustment to my intake (pushed to 30mg time-release twice daily), and it’s been…interesting. It definitely mostly works on my attention issues. There are times when it feels like I still drift a bit, but that might largely be personal habits. (Habits that I developed to make myself more effective while my attention flitted about like a jackrabbit on bath salts.)

Overall So Far…

Overall, I’d call it positive. I’m definitely more on my game than I was. I haven’t developed a psychological addiction or anything — I do take days off on a regular basis, which is both weird and awesome.

Side Effects

No real impact on my creative thinking, which was a huge concern for me, going into this. So I’m pretty pleased there.

Appetite suppression has definitely been a problem, too — I think. That might also be related to the insane amount of stress I have been under. But, Kate mentioned that I was getting skinnier, and I was all “what? no!” That’s largely the reaction of someone who looks at his gut for a weight indicator. My face is definitely getting thinner and I’m definitely losing a bit of muscle mass. I think my body might be starting to eat itself because I’m not getting enough food. That ain’t good.

So I’m going to start paying better attention to my food intake and eating even when I’m not hungry. Today, I had a Pepsi for breakfast. That ain’t going to fucking cut it anymore.

Next Steps

  • Lock down the food intake problem. Make sure I’m eating enough.
  • Start figuring out a system/structure for getting through the day to help overcome the inertia of past habits.

Image Credits: Phronimoi.